Plus, you know, it's none of my business.
eating peanut butter from the jar. Haven't been eating much lately, this is my lunch. Lost four pounds in three days. Not meaning to, just kinda happened. Feeling sick all the time. Random pains here and there, all over. Stomach in knots.
Hubby had a random drug test yesterday. We're not sure if he'll pass. We definately aren't sure he'll fail, either, but keeping my fingers crossed. All of them.
Scared. Manic. My hands are really shaky today, they were yesterday, I couldn't sleep all night.
But I'm not taking it out on the kids, which is a nice surprise. I usually get so impatient when I get like this, but I've been a fun mom today. we drew and danced and sang and I had so much energy, too much energy, still have it. Fell coked up, really. But I'm not, didn't even have more than 1 cup of coffee today.
Too many thoughts, man, too many in my head. Too many to document, to grasp, to hold on to, even thinking about relating them makes me want to sweat.
somebody hold me. I've got 7 hours until he gets home, it's just to long to wait.